when I want to share

Tik,.,tik,.,.tik
Waktu berdetik
Tak mungkin bisa ku hentikan
Maumu jadi mauku
Pahitpun itu ku tersenyum

Kamu tak tahu rasanya hatiku
Saat berhadapan kamu

Tik,.,tik,.,.tik,.,.
Air mataku
Biar terjatuh dalam hati
Mau ku tak penting lagi
Biar ku buat bahagiamu

Kamu tak tahu rasanya hatiku
Saat berhadapan kamu
Kamu tak bisa bayangkan rasanya
Jadi diriku, yang masih cinta

Kamu tak tahu hancurnya hatiku
Saat berhadapan kamu
Kamu tak bisa bayangkan rasanya
Jadi diriku, yang masih cinta

bener2 memalukan…

gimana engga ya, masa ujian Bhs. Inggris bisa ga selesai ngerjain sich?!
masa’ ampe kekurangan waktu?!

kalo dibilag ga belajar, au y buka catetan ko..
tp kalo dibilang belajar y ngga jg sich, coz cuma asal baca…

aaarrrrggghhhh…..
nyesel au…..

okay, ujian tinggal 1 hari lagi, yaitu mata kuliah palink aneh yang pernah ada. sebenernya yang bikin aneh itu dosennya, coz jarang masuk n jarang ngasi materi, ga pernah malah! sumpe deh, g taw bsok maw blajar dari mana, materi apa.. catetan aja ga ada!

apapun yang terjadi, au harus konsekuen, au harus bisa nunjukkin bahwa au emang bisa kuliah mbil kerja, coz kalo mpe IPK ku dikit, bisa bener2 jadi mahasiswa kurang kerjaan.. kurang duit.. kurang pengalaman kerja lagi..

amin…amin…amin…

give me more lovin then i’ve ever had.
make it all better when i’m feelin sad.
tell me that i’m special even when i know i’m not.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
barely gettin mad,
im so glad i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy,
as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
theres only one way two say those three words
and that’s what i’ll do.
i love you.
give me more lovin from the very start.
piece me back together when i fall apart.
tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
best that i’ve had.
im so glad that i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
theres only one way two say those three words
and that’s what i’ll do.
i love you.i love you
you make it easy, its easy as 1234
theres only one thing two do three words four you i love you
theres only one way two say those three words
thats what ill do i love you
i love you i love you.
one two three four i love you.
i love you

This life is very complicated…
problem always comes and goes. but everything will be happen or was happened is the destiny in the fact. and always make everyone believes that this life is go on. seems like a sun, always rising and set.
and also my life, i don’t know when it will be over. a new problem has come before i can fixed the other problem. even if i felt so tired, but i should to fix it, to make it’s over and lets take the other new problem. make me desperate and take the blame. but i know, that is a concequence of this life.

Like this case, make me so desperate and wanna go from the fact. but someone has told to me that :

“if there’s no problem, don’t make a new problem”
“if there’s a problem, don’t go away from there”

i knew what it means…

some days ago…
i felt so confused, guilty, desperate, furious, and tired. someone has been making me so guilty causes of my mistakes. i’m so regret it. i was hurt him! what a stupid thing i have done?!
i’m sorry guys, i know, i won’t do it anymore. i promise…

two days ago…
he was utilized all of his force to stand in the breach for his life. and i’m so glad when i was heared that he can passed it. but it make me can’t go sleep…

yesterday…
some one was called me by phone, he told to me that i should to fix their problems, i should to take out of them. i doubt it, doubt my self can resolve it. but i have no choice! and chance never comes twice. he was tried to make me believe in me, believes my strength. he said that, “only one reason why i trust to you to handle it, cause you’re the one. only you know what it will be happen, what it will be go on.”, he really trust me. it’s look like a demand from him. he knew, that i’m capable to handled it…
sometimes, it’s seems like a joke, but in the fact, it’s a really big problem, biggest mistakes of them.

today…
i absolutely know, this is about discrimination, underestimation, miss communication, miss perception, miss understanding, and emotional. Last night, before i go to sleep, i was sent a pray to GOD, i wish that he get well soon… i don’t know why i did it, cause for along this time, i always judged to him, that he’s my rival…
and i was dreamed that i’m capable, i can take it over and i found a way for this…

Thanks GOD, you always beside me when i really need your hand, and also him.
i wish that he’ll be alright,
he should back for me,
only you, can make every dreams comes true…
I LOVE YOU, GOD…